It's 1:40 in the A.M...

...just got back from seeing Superman Returns. And it was FUCKING AWESOME. Excuse the vulgar language, but it was so, so, so, so good! I was surprised at how much I enjoyed it, and of course it has everything you could want in a movie. And there were nail-biting scenes. I've never bitten my nails before during a movie, but this time I caught myself practically drooling all over my fingers at certain parts. I'm definitely seeing it again and again and again. And Brandon Routh? Yeah, I had my doubts. But super dreamy! Must go to bed now, work is going to suck tomorrow.......

Really now...

Dating sucks. Maybe this is why I've avoided it for so long. Because I'm awful at it! Well, I take that back. I'm not entirely horrible at it, otherwise these guys I've dated wouldn't ask for a second date. I'm awful because I go on dates with guys I'm not very attracted to, and sure enough, the date doesn't go so well and I'm the one who has to end it. Now, I've only gone on 2 recently, which isn't very much at all, so I can't say all dating sucks. But I've learned that I honestly have to be attracted to the guy's photo and profile from now on before agreeing to meet them in person. Case in point #1) Lazy Eye Guy. Guess we'll just call him LEG? Yeah. Not attracted to his photo, but he seemed decent looking and his profile sounded like we had a lot in common. Met him for coffee, he's about my height, aged 10 yrs since his photo, gained about 20 lbs since his photo, and had a lazy eye. I didn't know where to look for half the date! And then at one point his eyes did focus on me and it freaked me out. I shouldn't be so judgmental, my poor little cousin has a lazy eye too. :( But it's not like I'm going to date my cousin, and I'm not going to date LEG! If he had this wonderful personality to overshadow his physical appearance, then maybe. But no, he sorta put himself down the whole time. I like to use Jack Black as an example. Not an attractive guy by normal standards. But he is just so friggin' hilarious, that I would date him (then again, he's married now, but you get my point).

Date 2 was better, at least he looked like his photo. And he's originally from Texas and works for a 3-D animation company, so he definitely sounds good on paper. Or on screen, as the case may be. But we just didn't connect, or at least I didn't feel any sparks. I cursed QK for his "thunderbolt" theory, but there IS some validity to it, I've realized. There has to be SOME kind of chemistry. Or hilarity. And trust me, this guy was no Jack Black. I just sent an email about 10 minutes ago to Date #2 saying "sorry, but we could be friends...". Ugh, I hate being the bearer of bad news. I looked down the entire time I wrote the email wincing, because I just feel so guilty letting guys go. But I have to affirm myself that it's better to do it now then say "Well, I guess we could date and maybe you'll grow on me..."

And then there's that new show on ABC, I think, called "How to Get the Guy." Their first tip was to do online dating. I just watched tonight's episode, which is #3, so I missed how they found their dates exactly online. How is it, though, that just after 3 episodes, 3 out of the 4 women have already found attractive men with chemistry? What am I doing wrong? Granted, I'm guessing this show is at least 13 episodes long which means something must go wrong with their relationships within the next few episodes....mwuhahhaha. I'm evil. ;)

Somebody's Got a Case of the Mondays...

Ugh, did I wake up on the wrong side of the bed today. I was tossing and turning all night. And I had a really weird dream that I was Veronica Mars and was in love with Weevil, and he made his PCH buddies protect me, and I couldn't get my mystery-solvin' skills on. So because of these crazy dreams, I woke up an hour late. I would have called in sick, but I had too much to do today, which made me even grumpier to realize that I couldn't even be sick if I wanted to. :( But regardless of all of that, I had an awesome weekend hanging out with my friends. On Saturday, I watched "A Prairie Home Companion" with G and his boy toy, then we met up with KA for dinner at this trendy spot by my apt called Ford's Filling Station. Waited an hour for a table, but the food was tasty, albeit a bit on the pricey side. On Sunday, I met up again with KA at Jin Patisserie and had an unpleasant experience with G, who text messaged me that he and M had broken up. I called him, only to realize he was playing a mean joke. Evil twin, evil evil twin. Sunday night I met up with my old college roommates and smoked hookahs for close to 3 hours straight. Which probably explains why I had such wild dreams last night and overslept this morning. Huh....

So I met with this therapist twice, and he basically told me there's nothing wrong with me, I just haven't put myself out there enough. Which I know everyone has told me, but I just had to hear it from an unbiased professional. I'm not going to go back anymore, because I really don't need it, but it was an interesting experience nonetheless. And because of his advice, I AM trying to put myself out there a little more.

I went out on a date a few weeks ago with a guy from match, ER. I wasn't attracted to his photo at all, but he seemed like an interesting enough guy, and I was wondering if I was unlucky in relationships because I was superficial. We met for coffee, and I must admit that yes, I AM superficial. ER was my height, had gained about 20 lbs since his photo, aged about 10 years, and had a lazy eye which focused on me occasionally during the evening. There might have been a second date had I found him remotely interesting, but alas, no connection whatsoever. He emailed me last week seeing if I wanted to hang out again. Instead of being the wuss that I usually am and telling him I was moving, I told him the truth. Haven't heard from him since. :)

Started chatting with another guy from match, DN. Again, not so attracted to his photo, so we'll see...

I've already experienced a perk of putting myself out there a litte more. KA and I went along with a coworker to a concert last Tuesday and met said coworker's cute friends. I think one in particular is quite a cutie, told my coworker, and we're supposed to see him again tomorrow night. Very premature to even be mentioning it, but I always get my hopes up when a cute guy crosses my path. Wish me luck, hopefully I won't catch a bad case of the Tuesdays....

A Quickie Before Bed....

...that's what he said! Hehehe, just had to throw that in there. ;) But seriously, this WILL be a quick post. Although I've realized that when I'm extremely tired and it's extremely late, I tend to ramble on and on. Anyhoo, just got home about an hour ago from work. I hate Toy Fair. And I'm afraid that ppl at work think I'm just overreacting right now and behaving like a bitchy woman because I pushed my projects ahead of everyone else's today. But I had good reason: all of my stuff was due by 7am tomorrow morning whereas everyone else's is due for the majority on Friday. Hellooo, makes sense to bump up my prints, but whatever. I'm over it.

Onto happier notes, G and I got promotions! We're now SENIOR designers! Woohoo! Now I can finally quit and move back to Texas! ;) And I'm also getting over QK, despite how cute he is. I'm seriously leaning towards him being gay. Yesterday we were at a meeting at church and he had on a gray t-shirt and khaki pants. Not bad. But then it was paired with shiny silver metallic Adidas athletic shoes (and when I mean shiny silver metallic, I mean the entire shoe looked like it was covered in tin foil) and a bright orange leather belt with a rather sizable shiny silver buckle. He also has a bright orange laptop bag that he carries around. Come on now. Seriously.

Next post (whenever that may be): 1) bad match.com date, 2) went to a therapist, who says I'm normal, just lazy, 3) I feel like I haven't really LIVED, and 4) there's a couple of potentials in the horizon... Sorry to leave y'all hanging like that. But it IS Toy Fair week!